Archive for January, 2008

The flame..

It is going down.  At this very moment I could not care less. I am very disapointed.  I am very unimpressed. And it goes against who I am.  I should not just stay and suck it up.  It is very unhealthy.

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I’m not there…

I have been feeling really bad about myself. No actually I have been feeling really awful about being.  Existing has been a test, a challenge at every moment.  I don’t think I have ever been trapped in such a bottomless pit of distress.  I have been struggling so much to just be stable, happy, balanced, not scared.  [...]

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Ca passe ou ca casse…

So I sat down with my boss and our National Sale Manager.  Brought forward solution and was completely 100% forward and authentic.  I believe I got the same from them.  I am going to sleep on it.  Tomorrow morning is either going to be my first day without a job in transport or it is going [...]

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Battlestar Galactica Fun Facts

Commander Adama has a shaving mirror in his cabin. This mirror is made by IKEA, and is a model called “Fräck” (spelling according to IKEA Web site). This word is similar to “frak” (spelling according to the subtitles with an “a” and without a “c”), which is the primary vulgarity in the Battlestar Galactica universe. [...]

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Trying to be Brave

And having a lot of trouble doing it.  I feel like crap much…  I was stucked in an anxiety loop last night; I cried a lot and I was filled with anger and disapointment.  I have been perceiving things at work as being not short from nightmarish.   On a daily basis something happens and I [...]

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One month

I give it one month and either he is going to let me go because.. whatever or what is going to happen is that I am going to say goodbye if it kills my soul.  If I can bring good in the office, be a good business woman without being a cutballs (I am not [...]

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Crapalicious

Today I feel “blahhh”. It’s not really a bad day, but it is definitely not a good day.  I am at work and things are not rolling at all.  Yes, I am trying to keep up smiling and go on.  I get disapointed sometime.

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