Archive for July, 2008
31
Jul
Posted by Onyxx in Living with Mental Disorders, My cat Cleo. Tagged: Cat, Living with Mental Disorders, My cat Cleo. Leave a Comment
Today Cleo went in for an operation to have her uterus removed. That was made in order to avoid for her to have reoccuring pyometra. We brought her early in the morning and we called like in the afternoon. We were supposed to wait to the ned of afternoon, but by around 3pm we were [...]
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29
Jul
Posted by Onyxx in About Life, Body Mind Spirit, Detoxing from Effexor XR, Exploring Consciousness, Living with Mental Disorders, Personal Contracts and Goals, Self-Image and self-esteem, The Art of Living. Tagged: Cold Turkey, Detoxing from Effexor XR, Effexor XR, Exploring Consciousness, Living with Mental Disorders, Magick, Mental Health, Perception, Personal Contracts and Goals, Self-Image and self-esteem, serotonin-norepinephrine reuptake inhibitor, Setting myself Goals, SSRI, The Art of Living. Leave a Comment
I had a keyboard malfunction yesterday so I did not post because of that. Since I could not really move out of bed because I hurt my neck, I was lazy, I admit it. So what is happening with me apart from my restriction to move my head? Well, I believe I can say I [...]
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27
Jul
Posted by Onyxx in About Life, Body Mind Spirit, Detoxing from Effexor XR, Living with Mental Disorders, My cat Cleo, Personal Contracts and Goals, Self-Image and self-esteem. Tagged: Cat, Cold Turkey, Detoxing from Effexor XR, Effexor XR, Living with Mental Disorders, Mental Health, My cat Cleo, Perception, Personal Contracts and Goals, Self-Image and self-esteem, serotonin-norepinephrine reuptake inhibitor, Setting myself Goals, SSRI. Leave a Comment
I believe we could consider that my detox is now over. I ahve no horrible physical uncomfortable plaguing me anymore. Anyway, nothing like what I have been throught in the past two weeks. I have the “head buzz” from time to time but I can deal with it. I even been [...]
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26
Jul
Posted by Onyxx in Body Mind Spirit, Detoxing from Effexor XR, Exploring Consciousness, Living with Mental Disorders, Personal Contracts and Goals. Tagged: Cold Turkey, Detoxing from Effexor XR, Dreaming, Effexor XR, Exploring Consciousness, Living with Mental Disorders, Magick, Mental Health, Perception, serotonin-norepinephrine reuptake inhibitor, Setting myself Goals, SSRI, Stream of Consciousness, Synchronicity & Serendipity. Leave a Comment
I want to quiet my mind and find stillness.
But when I try, the incessant chatter is even louder.
No matter how much meditation or mindfulness,
It consumes me.
I am very, very tired to have no control
Over these negative messages
That I keep hearing all the time in my head.
It’s a nightmare, really to feel so overwhelmed
All the time.
I [...]
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25
Jul
Posted by Onyxx in Body Mind Spirit, Detoxing from Effexor XR, Living with Mental Disorders, Self-Image and self-esteem. Tagged: Cold Turkey, Detoxing from Effexor XR, Effexor XR, Living with Mental Disorders, Mental Health, Perception, Self-Image and self-esteem, serotonin-norepinephrine reuptake inhibitor, SSRI, Stream of Consciousness, Synchronicity & Serendipity. Leave a Comment
July 25 – Day 14 of detox
I am tired today, I took things really easy. Tonight my head is feeling weird again. Apart from that I did not have any physical discomfort. I am really trying to quiet my mind. Maybe if my thoughts are still I ccould hear the message right. I’m going to [...]
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24
Jul
Posted by Onyxx in About Life, Body Mind Spirit, Detoxing from Effexor XR, Living with Mental Disorders, Personal Contracts and Goals, Self-Image and self-esteem. Tagged: Cold Turkey, Detoxing from Effexor XR, Living with Mental Disorders, Mental Health, Perception, Personal Contracts and Goals, Self-Image and self-esteem, serotonin-norepinephrine reuptake inhibitor, Setting myself Goals, SSRI, Work related. 1 Comment
July 24 – Day 13 of detox
I know I am being too hard on myself as usual, but I am sick and tired of my anxiety and all that comes with it. I am trying really hard to not overreact, not be completely overwhelmed by my negative thoughts but it is like a very bad [...]
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23
Jul
Posted by Onyxx in About Life, Body Mind Spirit, Detoxing from Effexor XR, Living with Mental Disorders, The Art of Living. Tagged: Cat, Cold Turkey, Detoxing from Effexor XR, Effexor XR, Living with Mental Disorders, Mental Health, Perception, serotonin-norepinephrine reuptake inhibitor, SSRI, The Art of Living. Leave a Comment
July 23 – Day 12 of detox
Jackson has been playing Vice City for a couple of days so I guess at this point the joy of the music of the 80’s is getting to me. It has been a couple of times that “Cars” by Gary Newman plays; I was half asleep, very depressed and [...]
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22
Jul
Posted by Onyxx in Body Mind Spirit, Detoxing from Effexor XR, Living with Mental Disorders, Self-Image and self-esteem. Tagged: Cold Turkey, Detoxing from Effexor XR, Dreaming, Living with Mental Disorders, Mental Health, Perception, Self-Image and self-esteem, serotonin-norepinephrine reuptake inhibitor, SSRI. Leave a Comment
July 22 – Day 11 of detox
I frankly don’t know what is up with me today. As much as I was on the right track as much now I am even anxious at being anxious on top of the rest of my anxiety. I take everything the wrong way I guess. Every look, every intonation. [...]
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