July 22 – Day 11 of detox
I frankly don’t know what is up with me today. As much as I was on the right track as much now I am even anxious at being anxious on top of the rest of my anxiety. I take everything the wrong way I guess. Every look, every intonation. every answer or lack of it. I had really bad dreams last night. And when in dream I realized that there was something not quite fitting and that I got angry and said out loud that it was all a fraud, just a dream and that I wanted to wake up NOW, I got stuck in one of those “I think I am awake but i am still trapped in a dream” situation. I just feel really bad in my body and mind today. I don’t really want to talk about it more.
The Onyxx
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