Archive for September, 2008
30
Sep
Posted by Onyxx in Detoxing from Effexor XR, Living with Mental Disorders, Personal Contracts and Goals, Self-Image and self-esteem, The Art of Living. Tagged: Anxiety, brave, Exhaustion, out-of-body, scary, strange, stress, tireness. Leave a Comment
I wrote this two days ago but did not post it then: So I am wondering right now how strong I am. I have been pushing myself quite a bit frankly; I am proud of myself. But I am quite tired still, exhausted everyday. I am very anxious every single day and have panic attacks. [...]
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25
Sep
Posted by Onyxx in Living with Mental Disorders, Personal Contracts and Goals. Tagged: Agoraphobia, Anxiety, Claustrophobia, Group, panic, stress, tension. Leave a Comment
Today I haven’t been acting like I actually feel. I have kept quiet frankly because I actually don’t want to make things worst than they are. Yeah, everything is still going alright, but I am not feeling alright at all. I am very anxious and exhausted. There is a lot of tension at home because [...]
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24
Sep
Posted by Onyxx in Body Mind Spirit, Detoxing from Effexor XR, Living with Mental Disorders, Personal Contracts and Goals. Tagged: Agoraphobia, Anxiety, Challenge, Cognitive Behavioral Therapy, Control, Copperworks, Craft, panic attack, program, strengh. Leave a Comment
So I have been exhausted for days now. I started that program on monday and frankly it is taking a chunk out of me. To have to be up early in the morning, drag my ass to the location and stay there all day is rough. But I guess that is a good test of [...]
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20
Sep
Posted by Onyxx in Body Mind Spirit, Detoxing from Effexor XR, Exploring Consciousness, Living with Mental Disorders, Personal Contracts and Goals, Self-Image and self-esteem, The Art of Living. Tagged: Anxiety, Bliss, Compassion, Conscience, Detoxing from Effexor XR, Exploring Consciousness, Ideal, Living with Mental Disorders, meditation, memory, Mental Health, mindful, Mindfulness, panic, Perception, Personal Contracts and Goals, Polyamorous Life, remembering, Self-Image and self-esteem, Setting myself Goals, SSRI, Stream of Consciousness, Synchronicity & Serendipity, The Art of Living. Leave a Comment
I had a moment of pure of clarity while I was standing in the kitchen tonight. It is like there was something that clicked in my head and all of the sudden, negative messages that had been playing in my head non-stopped just did not make sense anymore. They were just now irrelevant.
All of the [...]
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16
Sep
Posted by Onyxx in Body Mind Spirit, Living with Mental Disorders, Personal Contracts and Goals, Self-Image and self-esteem, The Art of Living. Tagged: Date, Emploi-Quebec, Living with Mental Disorders, Mental Health, Personal Contracts and Goals, Polyamorous Life, polyamourous, positive thinking, Self-Image and self-esteem, Setting myself Goals, The Art of Living, Therapy, transart. Leave a Comment
Things are really taking a good turn it seems. I guess that positive thinking does actually work. Of course I am still fighting the negative mind chattering, I will probably always will, but I can now mostly do it with a smile on my face.
Like I said on friday, I got a place in the [...]
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11
Sep
Posted by Onyxx in Living with Mental Disorders, Personal Contracts and Goals. Tagged: Affirmations, Agoraphobia, Cabin fever, Claustrophobia, Living with Mental Disorders, Mental Health, Setting myself Goals, SSRI, stress, transart. Leave a Comment
This has not been easy… I have been in distress for a few days, challenging myself to snap out of it and go forward. I suffer from agoraphobia so most of the time since last february I don’t go out of the apartment. The living arragements are very difficult for me to deal with mentally. [...]
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7
Sep
Posted by Onyxx in About Life. Leave a Comment
I have been feeling fairly bad these past few days… I think I am actually having allergies or I am coming down with something. I have had trouble to gather the energy to do anything. Of course, my mind is overactive as usual and I am having things that are bothering me a lot. I [...]
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4
Sep
Posted by Onyxx in Body Mind Spirit, Living with Mental Disorders, Personal Contracts and Goals, Self-Image and self-esteem. Tagged: Acne, Adventures, Altered Books, Awakening, Beauty, Bliss, Challenge, Charisma, Collaboration, Craft, Daring, Design, Divine, Djembe, Dress Up, Ecstasy, Exploring Consciousness, Flow, freedom, Illustration, Imagination, Integrity, Intuition, journaling, journey, joy, key, kundalini, learn, life force, listen, Living with Mental Disorders, Love, meditate, Mental Health, message, mirror, movement, Multiverse, Perception, performance art, poets, potential, powerful, proactive, read, receptive to the moment, remember and transmit, resonate, rest, seduce, see people, Self-Image and self-esteem, Senses, sensuality, Setting myself Goals, share, simplicity, smile, spirit, sublimate, tai-chi, temple, The Art of Living, trance, truth, unique, vibrant, videoclip, whole, write books, yoga. Leave a Comment
Here is an ad for Proactive on Tv right now. That stuff did work very well the first time around. Maybe if I am so self-conscious about my appearance I should do some some things like starting to use it again. It did even improve the aspect of my skin where scars have been left [...]
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