Archive for the ‘Exploring Consciousness’ Category

The Emergence of the Dragon

This week has been very difficult for me.  I think I hit a wall or something.  I have been making progress; I have been working hard everyday to feel better and be at peace with myself. I have been stuck in a difficult place for days, crying my eyes out, wondering what was wrong with [...]

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Projection and well being

I needed to take some time to get into school properly. It’s going alright overall. I got sick last week (and was a bit the previous week) because of the ibs and also because of a bad cold. I was a mess. I was very discouraged and I did not know [...]

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The Zen of Cylons

The image on this post is from an artist that I discovered on DeviantART; it is jasonpal…  I strongly recommand that everyone visits his gallery.  He is incredibly talented.  The reason I chose this particular piece is because of the choice of subject: Starbuck and the nebula that went nova (forming a mandala in the [...]

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Healing the Heroine

I’ve had therapy tonite.  I asked her at the end of the last session why I was not getting exercises to do between sessions like Jackson is getting.  Seems like actually it is not cognitive behavioral therapy I am doing, it is psychodymamics.  I needed to place things in perspective and understand in my own [...]

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A little tale

Jackson and I watched the mini-serie “Tin Man” during the week-end.  I let myself be taken by it and I really enjoyed the ride actually.  I kept on looking at Alan Cumming character Glitch almost mesmerized.  I was thinking how delicious he looked and how much I would love to have an whole day alone [...]

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Alive Now

I have questioned myself on Friday, did some reflections on what the frak is up with me and my constant self-talk that is so destructive.  I think I am afraid of being myself fully because I know I can be a very intense person and that a lot of people might not be able to [...]

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Mindful moments

I had a moment of pure of clarity while I was standing in the kitchen tonight. It is like there was something that clicked in my head and all of the sudden, negative messages that had been playing in my head non-stopped just did not make sense anymore. They were just now irrelevant.
All of the [...]

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Happy Healthy Eccentric

I was meditating, doing some deep introspection this morning.  I wanted to try to heal myself because last night I had a fairly bad “episode”.  I imagine it was just a very bad panic attack, but I was scared and thought I was maybe losing my mind. We were watching The Stand TV miniseries when [...]

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