Archive for the ‘Personal Contracts and Goals’ Category

Pushing through walls

I promised that I would make an effort to write every week here.  Today is kinda difficult, I don’t feel like it. Actually I did not feel like getting out of bed at all today.  I feel gloomy and depressed.  There are no specific reasons for it, it just is.   But all week I have [...]

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The Emergence of the Dragon

This week has been very difficult for me.  I think I hit a wall or something.  I have been making progress; I have been working hard everyday to feel better and be at peace with myself. I have been stuck in a difficult place for days, crying my eyes out, wondering what was wrong with [...]

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The fire inside

I have been feeling upset the past few days, especially yesterday.  It is bothering me a lot that I don’t feel like I can create anything of any consquence.  Sure I am doing what I am asked to do in class, but just like when I was at Transart doing enamel/copperwork, I don’t feel like [...]

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Projection and well being

I needed to take some time to get into school properly. It’s going alright overall. I got sick last week (and was a bit the previous week) because of the ibs and also because of a bad cold. I was a mess. I was very discouraged and I did not know [...]

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The Zen of Cylons

The image on this post is from an artist that I discovered on DeviantART; it is jasonpal…  I strongly recommand that everyone visits his gallery.  He is incredibly talented.  The reason I chose this particular piece is because of the choice of subject: Starbuck and the nebula that went nova (forming a mandala in the [...]

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Never too Late

I’m still not sleeping that good you know…   This is really getting to be annoying.  I don’t want to do anything, especially not come out of the apartment and go in the cold temperature because I am sleepy and want to stay in under a blanket.  It’s not really that I am that agoraphobic these [...]

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Home sweet Home

So we now have the apartment to ourselves, Jackson and I…  We have been setting things up so we are feeling free and comfortable.  I now have a bedroom with two queen size beds side by side.   That resulted in a “superbed” that is huge and in which I can roll!  We have a living-room [...]

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In the year 2009

People make New Year resolutions all the time but they do not necessarily follow through with them. I am not expecting the impossible from myself, I am not asking myself to reach goals that are beyond what I can grasp. I have been working very hard everyday on rebuilding myself since I stopped, in [...]

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