Archive for the ‘Self-Image and self-esteem’ Category

Standing in the Mud

I had to stop and reflect on it; it was inevitable.  I had to consciously and clearly ask myself if I actually believed that I strayed from my path and lost my way.  The answer is “no”.  I have remained authentic; my core untouched and my heart true.  My inner light still burning, keeping me [...]

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The Emergence of the Dragon

This week has been very difficult for me.  I think I hit a wall or something.  I have been making progress; I have been working hard everyday to feel better and be at peace with myself. I have been stuck in a difficult place for days, crying my eyes out, wondering what was wrong with [...]

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The Zen of Cylons

The image on this post is from an artist that I discovered on DeviantART; it is jasonpal…  I strongly recommand that everyone visits his gallery.  He is incredibly talented.  The reason I chose this particular piece is because of the choice of subject: Starbuck and the nebula that went nova (forming a mandala in the [...]

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Never too Late

I’m still not sleeping that good you know…   This is really getting to be annoying.  I don’t want to do anything, especially not come out of the apartment and go in the cold temperature because I am sleepy and want to stay in under a blanket.  It’s not really that I am that agoraphobic these [...]

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Home sweet Home

So we now have the apartment to ourselves, Jackson and I…  We have been setting things up so we are feeling free and comfortable.  I now have a bedroom with two queen size beds side by side.   That resulted in a “superbed” that is huge and in which I can roll!  We have a living-room [...]

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Healing the Heroine

I’ve had therapy tonite.  I asked her at the end of the last session why I was not getting exercises to do between sessions like Jackson is getting.  Seems like actually it is not cognitive behavioral therapy I am doing, it is psychodymamics.  I needed to place things in perspective and understand in my own [...]

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So you smile at me

I guess I never feel satisfied about myself. I wish I was feeling awesome right now.  I know I still have to remain patient and compassionate with myself but it blows…  I don’t want to wait for months until I feel like myself again.  I don’t want it to be long weeks before I can [...]

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A little tale

Jackson and I watched the mini-serie “Tin Man” during the week-end.  I let myself be taken by it and I really enjoyed the ride actually.  I kept on looking at Alan Cumming character Glitch almost mesmerized.  I was thinking how delicious he looked and how much I would love to have an whole day alone [...]

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